Reincarnated Young Lady Aims to Be an Adventurer - Volume 8 Chapter 140

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Another “time-reversal”?

Everything is going to be reverted back to when Maribelle was first reborn into this world… To how things were before I was born?

W-would that really be the right move? This time around, although we did take some losses, we had finally just gotten to a point where Maribelle wasn’t controlling things and a bright future seemed possible, right? We don’t have a guarantee that a next time would turn out better than this time around, right? Even if we do have this test sample to work off of…

Not only that… Would that mean none of my life this time around even happened? Everything would go back to a completely blank slate? Even though I desperately trained with Lu, suffered, and survived while gritting my teeth? And, oh yes – Lu!

I suddenly got up in a hurry.

“G-goddess! Lu and Asu and Miyu all fought for me against Tarl-sama! Please, don’t punish and smite them! I’ll take all responsibility for them!

“Whether they had good reason to or not, a sin is a sin… Why do you attempt to cover for them?” Magan asked, peering at me from behind with ash-gray eyes.

“Because – because Lu and I are two hearts beating as one!” I said.

“Even though… you ended up dead because of all this?” Magan asked.

Did he mean I couldn’t defend Lu just because I had died? Didn’t I say we were two hearts beating as one? Unbelievable!

“I died…  I died, but Lu is still my kindred spirit. I need to bear Lu’s sins along with him. I will accept any punishment you deem necessary! Please! There must be some way Lu and Asu and Miyu can… be forgiven to live a pleasant… life from here on out…”

I was supposed to live on with them – a marvelous life together with the original four holy beasts, but… I did cause them so much suffering, after all…

“Sera… Do you really think they could live the rest of their lives pleasantly without you? A holy beast whose contracted human has died is a pitiful thing, indeed…” said Kirama, looking off into the distant sky. Long ago, he must have had gone through a sorrowful separation.

A holy beast whose contracted human’s death was not a destined event is said to have their soul forfeited. I don’t know what forfeiting a soul means, but would it mean that Lu and Miyu would fade away in a state of despair? 

I couldn’t let that happen. Perhaps it was better to use a “time-reversal” and return to a time where I never made contracts with them.

I thought back to Lu hopping around the tops of silver clouds.

I also remembered Miyu, looking happy with wide eyes and sitting on the back of a little dragon – sweet-scented wildflowers growing all around them.

Ahh, no! I don’t want to forget, I don’t want to forget. The days we spent together are my treasures. How could I agree to have them all erased! Oh, please… Even though this was egotistical of me – I needed Lu to stay mine…

“Goddess of the moon… Please, don’t use the ‘time-reversal’… I, I was very happy! I was loved by my father, and brother, and grandmother. I got to meet Lu, and cute little Miyu agreed to follow me. I was doted on by Asu. I got to marry Gilan,” I said.

Tears welled up and fell down my face.

“This time around was a success!” I said, “So, please! Keep things the same! If you have any pity for me, please just work to make those still alive live happily! If you count Maribelle’s defeat along with my situation, it’s still an overall contribution to world peace, isn’t it? Allow my beasts to make new contracts and form new families! I’ll take on any punishments as my responsibility, so…”

Make all my loved ones happy, please…

Kirama sighed deeply, and shook his head, saying, “Taking care to look after other people, with no regard for herself.  Because of that, she has such gracefully pure magic, and we would be left with a peaceful world because of it… What a tragic state of affairs.”

“Serafiona, you think Luda can just form a new contract and find happiness? You think Gilan can live on with you gone without breaking down? That he can find a new spouse knowing that you died protecting him? If you think that, then you are but a fool. You need to look within the magic inside you!!!” Magain said, baring his fangs and growling. He was clearly very angry with me.

The magic inside me? I should search through it? I closed my eyes and focused my consciousness on my heart.

There it was. Lu’s refreshing magic… Ah… There were rage and sorrow swirling about… And covering all of it was… Helplessness?

Miyu’s flowery magic… Miyu’s vivacious flowers were on the brink of wilting… The fragrant scents about them were slowly fading… Was this her hopelessness?[Read this novel and other amazing translated novels from the original source at the “Novel Multiverse dot com” website @ novelmultiverse.com]

And then there was the slightly bitter, coffee-colored magic of Gilan… Ah, it was going wild, out of control. The pain in his soul was enough to hurt me, too. His hatred for this world, and a despondency – the Gilan I loved, the Gilan who was actually a sweetheart inside… Was being painted over with these feelings.

“Luda and you are two hearts beating as one. Quite literally, your hearts are connected. It would be impossible for Luda to cut ties with you and establish a new contract, now that he has watched over you as you came this far, devoting his thoughts and feelings to you. The emotions that you just saw in Luda – don’t underestimate those feelings of hopelessness. They are immense,” Magan said.

At that point in time, all I could think of doing was jumping in front of Gilan. I wasn’t thinking of all the pain it would bring to everyone. How could I lighten this weight on everyone’s hearts?

Is a “time-reversal” really the only option? For everyone to live and laugh again, do I have to cease to exist in the first place?

…Yes, it seems so. I’m already dead, aren’t I? So, would it really make a difference whether I ever existed or not?

Ah… In the end, I couldn’t avoid the judgment day of a seventeen-year-old. I had an even shorter life than my last existence when I died at eighteen. Getting past those years and reaching my marriage at nineteen… It was a dream not meant to be. Well, even if it was a dream, it brought me plenty of happiness just to dream it. For in that dream, I was able to wear that white dress Grandmother had prepared for me many times, and by my side…

Ah, Gilan… How could I scar you – you have so many scars on your soul already.

I can’t.  I couldn’t possibly.

I looked up and decided to ask the goddess – to pray to her. 

“I accept the ‘time-reversal’. I really pray that the third time will work.” I said.

“…And?” she asked.

“And please, you don’t have to reincarnate me here again,” I said.

“…Your world… You wish to return to your world?”

“I don’t fully understand how time works for you, but if I returned to Earth now, there would probably be no one that I love waiting for me. Instead of that, I want to be made into a spirit that can watch over Gilan,” I said.

“A spirit?” the goddess asked, tilting her head.

“Oh, but if a ghostly entity was following Gilan around, I wonder if Asu would drive me away. Then… wind! I want to be wind, always close to Gilan!” I said.

Now, this was a good idea.

Back on Earth in my previous life, there were many songs that spoke of someone becoming wind to watch over family or loved ones after death. I wanted to become wind, to become air, so that I could always warm Gilan, and be with him until the end, making sure his heart never grew cold. I promised, after all. I swore. I said I would never leave Gilan alone again.

“Wait! What would you have me do with Luda?” asked the Goddess.

“Well, I have to choose between Lu and Gilan. But I’m the only one in the world who truly knows the depth of Gilan’s loneliness. Being alone and covered in blood on a battlefield… With no allies behind you, it’s a bottomless loneliness…” I said.

It was loneliness born out of the shock of having backs turned against you, the numbness of a kill-or-be-killed mindset, killing ordinary people for your country only for your soul to grow more and more rotten, being feared as a murderer as your spirit dissipates. 

This loneliness was the common trait between me and Gilan.

In this life, I was loved by my family and full of happiness… That reality will disappear, but I will pass on that love to Gilan. To Gilan, who can only trust me, a troubled man who actually just wants to love, and be loved.

In a past life, he didn’t betray anyone. In this life, not only that, he gave me a selfless love.

I will never let Gilan fall back into an ocean of loneliness.

“Lu will still have you, Magan-sama, and Goddess, too.  Please… take care of Lu,” I said, and somehow managed a smile.

“Serafiona…” Magan said.

“Goddess, please! Oh, and if possible, I was hoping you could leave my memory as it is… I mean, if I’m going to be an inhuman spirit, I can’t talk to anyone, anyway, right? Haha…” 

Suddenly, Magan lifted me up with one paw from behind. He then gave me a big lick on the face. I began to cry again.

“Oh, Goddess… Please, lend us your benevolence…” Magan said, touching his forehead to mine. A magic similar to Lu’s, but slightly more solemn was flowing through him.

“You cry in the garden of the Goddess… this is a holy area designed to keep the soul still and at peace… how disrupted your spirit must be… Oh, goddess…” Kirama said, with a wavering voice.

“You want to become wind… I see… Are you tired of being human?” asked the goddess, cooly, but with a hint of sympathy in her voice.

Sympathy, right? That might have been sympathy.

“You’re going to run from this problem? Serafiona!” Magan growled as if challenging me.

Would it be running away? From being a human? Was this unfair of me? …It’s too late. I’ve always been a low-class coward.

“I understand now why our child here has become so thoroughly a victim… She’s honest and clever. Even her weaknesses are pure,” said the Goddess, shaking her head gracefully. Gold flakes fell from her mane. Slowly, she made her way over to me, held by Magan. 

“Maribelle is the precious child of her god. But in the same way, Serafiona, you are certainly nothing to be parted with so easily, either. You are not only loved by Ludalfina, Miyu, Asukaliela, and Kiramagell, and Maganbalu, who are gods of the afterlife. You are loved by all of these gods of the five pillars that I rule over, and they all pray with all their hearts for your soul to be at peace… We are beings who are not so easily emotionally swayed, and yet… we cannot possibly ignore your plight,” the Goddess said, with her golden eyes piercing their gaze through me.

“Serafiona, I will grant your wish. I will make you an exceptionally gentle and light wind to warm Gilan in his times of need. I promise you,” said the Goddess, and a single golden teardrop fell from her eye, and spread into a mist before it sprinkled onto me. I was surrounded by a veil of light.

I could feel through my skin that my wish was granted.

“Goddess! Wait!” begged Magan, in a panic.

“Goddess! No! There must be another way!” cried Kirama, also at wit’s end.

“There is no other way. Granting Serafiona’s wish is how her hardships and sacrifice shall be rewarded. Serafiona, you may run free in our world… with ease…” said the goddess, and with that, she pounded her hoof to the ground, decisively. An overwhelming amount of light flowed out of her entire body. An immense wave of magic flowed out of her and magical forms overlapped on each other incomprehensibly in the air. 

The “time-reversal” was coming into effect!!!

My body also began to shine brightly, and in a single moment, my body’s size returned to normal… My hair flew up and danced in the air, I drifted away from Magan’s warm body, and I floated into space.[Read this novel and other amazing translated novels from the original source at the “Novel Multiverse dot com” website @ novelmultiverse.com]